How often do we really put our foot down and only do what makes us happy? I think not very often. We have more people on medication and in therapy then ever before. People are routinely miserable at work and they carry into the world. I confess I’ve been known as the negative and miserable person. I am a people pleaser (I think this shocks people who don’t really know me because I have a pretty tough outer shell) and confrontation terrifies me. I have tried to fit myself into the round hole and I’ve tried to do what I know I should do. I’ve done what makes sense on paper and then I revert back into that negative and not happy person.
My friend called me on it the other day and it stung. Who wants to be known as that person? So I quit my job serving. It does pay well and I LOVED the people I work with, but it was very stressful for me. I always knew if I served I wanted to be a barista so that I could share a passion with people. Serving itself wasn’t the answer for me, it was taking 5 days to feel normal after a shift. I cried before and after. No one wants to live like that. I’m putting all of my energy into the yoga studio and tea shop now. I’m working at Moosejaw which I actually look forward to going to work there!
Guys, I encourage you to find what makes you a better person. If you are not in love with your life and your job then make a plan to get out. It won’t be easy and you will have to make sacrifices. My possessions can pretty much fit in my North Face duffle bag and the gear in my car with room for me to sleep . Most of my clothes are hand me downs from my mom, I haven’t bought that many things of my own in years. I let my roots grow LONG past when I should because I don’t always have the money. If sacrificing isn’t your jam and those things are important to you then find a company you align your values with while doing a job you maybe aren’t in love with. Working a job you don’t love isn’t always the wrong answer, but you have to soul search to determine if that’s what you really want.
I’m on a journey to be a better person and happier. Life has truly sucked the last few years, but that doesn’t mean my mindset has to. Life won’t ever be easy, but hey when has the easy trail ever led to anywhere worth going? You can totally vent, but let it go quick because that summit is coming. That summit is usually worth all the suck that went into getting there.